Plugging along
Not much news since I've returned from Phoenix...life keeps plugging along. I've found myself with a pleasant amount of free time which I quickly wile away online, reading books or with friends in New York. I really should use the time to finish up old projects and stay on top of current ones, but when life offers such breaks...
I have been spending a lot of time thinking about August. In part due to prompting by my counselor. I had reached a point of think I'll take things as they come...I seem to be doing well so far, but she seems insistent on focus on small insecurities that reside in the back of my head. I thought counselors were supposed to make you less paranoid...
Nonetheless because of these talks I've been thinking a lot about what sort of career would really make me happy. I love the thought of designing and ultimately want to teach in a university setting...though the teaching is still several years down the road. I want to give New York a shot for a few years, but honestly cannot see myself settling down here. A part of me misses the Midwest. Chicago suddenly has a golden glow, even though I realize design work is harder to come by. But I've also come to realize I really enjoy making the clothes. I love figuring out how to interpret a designers sketch into the real garment. I like the one on one time with the actors. I love the tactile and mechanical aspect of construction. My mathematical/logical side coming through. But part of it is that the security of a working in a costume shop and the decreased burden, compared to designing is very appealing as well. Is that part of in insecurity, of self doubt? Or do I really enjoy sewing that much more. I know a lot of my hesitancy in shifting into construction is other people's expectations. Professors and colleagues love my design work and some see it as a waste of a degree should I stop designing and focus on draping or craft work. But ultimately, it's my choice. And don't feel I have enough life experience at the moment to choose one over the other.
I have been spending a lot of time thinking about August. In part due to prompting by my counselor. I had reached a point of think I'll take things as they come...I seem to be doing well so far, but she seems insistent on focus on small insecurities that reside in the back of my head. I thought counselors were supposed to make you less paranoid...
Nonetheless because of these talks I've been thinking a lot about what sort of career would really make me happy. I love the thought of designing and ultimately want to teach in a university setting...though the teaching is still several years down the road. I want to give New York a shot for a few years, but honestly cannot see myself settling down here. A part of me misses the Midwest. Chicago suddenly has a golden glow, even though I realize design work is harder to come by. But I've also come to realize I really enjoy making the clothes. I love figuring out how to interpret a designers sketch into the real garment. I like the one on one time with the actors. I love the tactile and mechanical aspect of construction. My mathematical/logical side coming through. But part of it is that the security of a working in a costume shop and the decreased burden, compared to designing is very appealing as well. Is that part of in insecurity, of self doubt? Or do I really enjoy sewing that much more. I know a lot of my hesitancy in shifting into construction is other people's expectations. Professors and colleagues love my design work and some see it as a waste of a degree should I stop designing and focus on draping or craft work. But ultimately, it's my choice. And don't feel I have enough life experience at the moment to choose one over the other.
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3 Comments:
Sam-I don't think its a waste of a degree. If its what you enjoy and it gives you what you want, then I say do it. We not only need good designers but we also need people who can interpet those designs as well. Hell, there is enough theatre in Chicago that you could proably do both if you wanted.
There's no reason you can't do both and shift back and forth as your interest shifts. Right now you should be looking for what makes you happy and that you can sustain yourself with. As you get experiance you'll go toward what you feel is best for you. Don't presure your self to meet others expectations but don't hold yourself back either.
Those of us that know you know you can succeed at this at any level but you have to feel good about it.
Come back to the midwest and design whatever we ask you to for our independant theatre! I'm sure with you're skills you'll be able to find all the design work you want in Chicago while still working in a costume shop for security. No, I understand your desire to give New York a try for a time and I think you should.
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