Wrapping up the year
Another era come and gone. I'm currently in the process of cleaning out my office. Three years of accumulated books, drawings, fabrics and other miscellaneous things. It is astounding at how quickly materials pile up. And how much I didn't miss the things that fell into the black hole behind the desk.
I'd like to say I'll miss Rutgers. Certainly I'll miss some aspects of it. Mostly the people. I've had a strong urge to build a home and set up roots recently and I'm discovering home is more about the people I'm around than the place I'm at. I plan on giving New York a shot this coming fall after working at BTF. I was just informed of a promising position at Kean University (which would probably mean staying in Jersey). I doubt I'll want for work. But its the connections I have with other people that I'm lacking.
Three years ago I couldn't believe I was really heading out to Jersey. It was tough heading that far from family and friends. It still is hard, especially with loved ones heading in opposite directions again. I'm not sure I can keep doing this without a network of support nearby. And in such a transient state, I'm not sure I can open myself up to people who could become that support...
I'd like to say I'll miss Rutgers. Certainly I'll miss some aspects of it. Mostly the people. I've had a strong urge to build a home and set up roots recently and I'm discovering home is more about the people I'm around than the place I'm at. I plan on giving New York a shot this coming fall after working at BTF. I was just informed of a promising position at Kean University (which would probably mean staying in Jersey). I doubt I'll want for work. But its the connections I have with other people that I'm lacking.
Three years ago I couldn't believe I was really heading out to Jersey. It was tough heading that far from family and friends. It still is hard, especially with loved ones heading in opposite directions again. I'm not sure I can keep doing this without a network of support nearby. And in such a transient state, I'm not sure I can open myself up to people who could become that support...
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3:27 PM
3 Comments:
I know what you mean. It's hard to imagine "going home," after a project like grad school, not knowing where home is and not knowing who you are now. I'm glad I can put it off for two more years. How do you integrate the person you are now into the friends you had from before when you're not the person you used to be. What happens when the goals you had when you started aren't the same as the goals you have at the end. There is no end. Only the journey. Sounds like I can relate. I miss you.
I understand how you feel as well. How come when everyone talks about how exciting it is to be moving away from home and earning those extra degrees no one tells you that what you want the most is something familiar?
You could move out to Tennessee! Travis and I would love to have you stay. You could do costumes for Dolly Wood and work on my wedding dress. I'd make it worth your while...;)
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