The build to release
Today's weather seems the perfect metaphor for the general cycles of my life. A build up, followed by a release. Today the heat and humidity was stifling. I managed to spend most of the day in air conditioning, but find that the artificial cold is often too cold and something about cycled air leaves me with headaches. Regardless, I managed to escape the heat of the day. And later, after the slow build in temperature...the gradual increase of humidity...a rising pressure...the clouds gathered and split. Rain with little pomp and circumstance. Release without the production.
Things build up...lack of sleep, piles of work, dirty laundry, stress and the like. Then a goal is achieved, the pressure slackens. You move on. Little breakdowns. Little victories. While I appreciate the lack of drama and the mundane-ness of these cycles...I'm gearing up for a larger release. Something more satisfying. Emotional, spiritual, what have you...I don't know what that release will be, but I feel a bit sedentary at the moment. Perhaps it is the lack of nicotine talking...five days without now. I will break this habit again.
Cinderella opened. Another show. A good one, though I found it amusing that the staff responded more than the children did. I'm happy, though not content with my work. I rarely am. It served its purpose well. There are several things I'd like to fine tune. But now I can return to the focus of draping. I have two 1830's dresses to drape tomorrow. Not the fancy Romantic variety...more of the frontier. But three long days of tech and notes on top of my shop hours has left me spent.
I may head off to bed at an early 9pm.
Things build up...lack of sleep, piles of work, dirty laundry, stress and the like. Then a goal is achieved, the pressure slackens. You move on. Little breakdowns. Little victories. While I appreciate the lack of drama and the mundane-ness of these cycles...I'm gearing up for a larger release. Something more satisfying. Emotional, spiritual, what have you...I don't know what that release will be, but I feel a bit sedentary at the moment. Perhaps it is the lack of nicotine talking...five days without now. I will break this habit again.
Cinderella opened. Another show. A good one, though I found it amusing that the staff responded more than the children did. I'm happy, though not content with my work. I rarely am. It served its purpose well. There are several things I'd like to fine tune. But now I can return to the focus of draping. I have two 1830's dresses to drape tomorrow. Not the fancy Romantic variety...more of the frontier. But three long days of tech and notes on top of my shop hours has left me spent.
I may head off to bed at an early 9pm.
posted by Unknown at
7:46 PM
2 Comments:
Yay! I'm so proud of you. It's great to hear you quit smoking, even though I'm not sure when you started, but best of luck!
The weather has been like that here too: hot and humid all day and then a gonzo thunderstorm at about 4pm. I know how you feel--restless but happy to have some stability. Shouldn't I be happier? But, we're only 25. If I sellout for two years and go for my PhD, I'll only be thirty. So there's time. Rufus Wainwright again: "I don't know what it is, but you gotta do it, I don't know how it goes, but you gotta be there...give me heaven or hell, Calais or Dover..."
Am also glad to hear you're not smoking, well done. You can do it--you've done it before. :)
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